brutal reality of my state of mind

Here are a few notes I joted down while debating whether or not to pick up the phone (freewriting at its worst)

feeling like bugs are biting me
having to go to the bathroom more than usual
waking up feeling like I haven’t slept a wink
completely exhausted almost all the time
having difficulty thinking/analysing/finding the right word

should i call them? should i not call them?

will the ms clinic call me when they have my bloodwork and mri results in? what is the date for my appointment in february 2013? why am i having such a hard time with this?

i just want to cry. voicemail hell, which button do i push? why can’t i just get through to a person? i feel stupid enough calling in the first place, i hate my life right now what the hell is going on?    i just want this to be over and i know it never will be until i die.


What a baby I am these days. God help me.

About Christine N

I'm married to Daryle, Mom to two wonderful boys - Daniel and Andy.
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