In some ways I am feeling better. Much better. The terrible, suicidal thoughts at night have vanished. Whew. The tightness around my chest, making me feel like I couldn’t breathe has eased. Likely, this was some sort of manifestation of anxiety. The sense of urgency to calm down has passed. Reflecting on my recent emotional turmoil, I can hardly believe my complacency in allowing myself to deteriorate so rapidly. I am shocked at how completely the medication took over my mind and body.
I’m still very sore and achy, tired and my kidneys still hurt. But with a bit of self TLC some of these symptoms will improve.
Anyhow, just thought I’d post a quick update before climbing into bed. Sweet dreams.